I’m constantly amazed at the way God likes to get my attention.  Often, He speaks to me during my regular, daily life routine.  And, many times He speaks to me without any preparation or anticipation of it on my part.

That’s exactly what happened to me on this particular day.  My son Ezra asked me to play with him a game of Mario Kart.  Most days I turn him down, but this time I obliged. (Who wants to do dishes anyway?) When we started the race, it was an absolute disaster!  We were both all over the place, running our cars over cliffs, driving backwards and doing just plain terrible.  It was bad, even for me!  It took us a little while, but we finally realized we had switched controllers.

In just that split-second, God spoke to me.  “It’s always a disaster when you try to be somebody else!”  It was a simple little thought that hit me so hard.  I knew God was dealing with me in a deep way.  And I am always intrigued by the very creative ways God gets my attention!

You see, I have struggled for most of my life with insecurity and comparison.  Like many people, I find myself glancing over my shoulder at what the next person has, or their creativity, or their money, or their sense of style, or their great achievements… and I find myself coming up short.  Once I feel really down about myself, I try to find someone to compare myself to that isn’t as good in a certain area.  And, I begin to puff myself up with comparison to feel better about myself since I think I’m “better” than someone else.  But, then I feel guilty, because that’s not the way to live either.  And I begin to feel insecure again. You see, it’s a vicious cycle that the devil tries to use to lure us into his web and take our focus off of what really matters.

And this comparison problem isn’t new.  Even Jesus’ own disciples compared themselves to each other on more than one occasion!  There is one instance in particular that I can completely relate with, and here’s the passage:

John 21:20-22 Peter turned around and saw behind them the disciple Jesus loved—the one who had leaned over to Jesus during supper and asked, “Lord, who will betray you?”  Peter asked Jesus, “What about him, Lord?”  Jesus replied, “If I want him to remain alive until I return, what is that to you?  As for you, follow me.”

And that last sentence is what brings it home to me… “As for you, follow me.“  Jesus put Peter right in his place by basically telling him “it’s none of your business”!

And really, it’s none of my business what God does with someone else, or what they have or don’t have or look like, etc.  At the end of the day, I’m accountable for myself, how I respond to Jesus and how I use what He’s given me.

In that instant playing Mario Kart, I felt like a weight was lifted off of my shoulders.  It’s a whole lot simpler to live life without the extra pressure of trying to be someone else.  God wants me to be myself!  He designed me uniquely to fulfill a very specific plan.  And, in order to fulfill that plan, I need to stop trying to be someone else.